Here is an image of me as I prepared for that evening. I purchased a special dress for this occasion.  Spirit told me to wear white, so I bought a sassy white sweater dress from Banana Republic.  I did not think a Lapa would quite do the trick.  LOL! It is totally possible to do a private fasting ritual in a public place and look hot while doing it!  OK?  Yes We Can.

My husband literally dropped me off downtown at 10:00 PM.  I was alone.  He took me to the Four Seasons Hotel where I would start my evening at the Celebrity Chocolate Affair.  This was really fun!  My work?  My ritual?  My Mantra?  YES YES YES. I did this ritual from 10:00 Friday – 5:00 AM Saturday Morning.  The results?  Amazing!

The first objective I wanted to achieve in doing this is to prove to myself that I trust my very favorite Universal Law: We Only Attract Who and What We Are – Each person we attract is there for a purpose – to evolve us.

You see, I had been having a problem trusting the people who walk into my life when I know full and darned well that if I trust this basic Universal premise, then I have nothing at all to worry about in terms of who I meet.  I am meeting myself every time.  I am meeting like vibration.

Maybe you too struggle with trust issues that stem from a lack of faith in Universal Order and then a lack of trust for even yourself (been there) both of which lead to lack of trust in others.

So to go out into the world, ALONE, on a Friday Night with no car, no plans, no companions and looking like dis was quite a ritual.  I would simply BE in places, SEE what comes, WATCH who comes and OBSERVE my own ability to say YES to it all.  Why not?  Why not say yes to all the Me’s I meet?  Why not?  Why not?  (my nervous energy has me stuttering)

I knew I would be challenged, but I am committed to being a YES girl.  YES to life at last!  Yes We Can.

Check out my wild and sexy and hilarious Equinox adventure!

So here I am at the Four Seasons.  Goodbye honey!  Have a nice night.  My husband reluctantly dropped me off in the middle of nowhere as he had a client that evening for a feminine rebalancing session that would last the entire night.

I was on my own.

Damn.  I forgot my iPod.  Guess spirit doesn’t want me to distract myself and close off from the world.  I meant to bring my man, oops, I mean my Mac.  Had forgotten that too.  This ritual was already yielding all the tools I needed to focus on the matter at hand – TRUST – attracting people and events to prove to myself that I can trust LIFE and say YES to life.

The first thing I noticed were the men at the door, they were the guards or Valets at the hotel.  They were like “hay beautiful.  how you doing?  where are your friends?”  Flattered, I turned around to tell them that I was hanging out alone this evening.  I giggled as they watched me sway through the revolving glass door trimmed in luxurious brass encasement.  Lovely hotel, that Four Seasons in Atlanta.  This was beginning well.  I attracted guard to watch over me and send me love…

Upstairs at the event I first went to the bathroom to check the mirror.  I found a beautiful white woman in the mirror looking at herself.  Then two more professional looking women walked into the bathroom.  I started a conversation with them.  We talked for a while only to find that the original woman was upset about her husband looking younger than her.  I gave this woman a serious boost of JujuPower.  I told her that she was amazingly beautiful and that she should always know that he is with her because he loves her.  The other two women chimed in.  I showed the ladies my book and told the original woman that this may help – maybe she needs to develop a more intimate relationship with her feminine self.

All the ladies were pleased with my spiel.  They all gave me business cards and we all walked out of the bathroom together.  When I looked down at the cards I had received, one of the women was the owner and president of a television station local to Atlanta!  WOW.  I was just talking about doing a reality show.  I tucked the card away and made a mental note to call this women on Monday.  Fabulous so far!

When I finally found a place to sit at this posh and crowded affair, I found myself sitting near two men and one woman.  They were in the midst of a wonderful conversation about a seminar they had attended that day.  The seminar was all about the Law of Attraction!  What?  How could I have, from a possibility of dozens of tables, just happen to sit down to this discussion.  I happily joined in.  Once we were complete, I had booked one of the men for a weekend couples consultation!

WOW!  This is just the first 60 minutes of my ritual!

I excused myself because I wanted to go work the room a bit, mingle and all that jazz.  I LOVE to mingle!  So I started to walk into the grande central area.  I saw many paintings on display so I stopped to ask one of the men if he was the artist.  He said no, but he pointed to another man who was the artist.  As soon as I saw this guy, I began doting on the images and lavishly giving him his due credit.  The paintings are awesome!  I affirmed that he would be commissioned to do my entire home!  YES to my desire to have a famous artist deliver thousands in original work for my home!

As I walked back to my chair, a group of men sitting on a cozy couch were like – WOW – you know all eyes are on you girl!  I was like, what?  They stood and shook my hand and beckoned me to sit and relax.  Come to find out, these men were prominent in the community, one a doctor, one a lawyer, and one an IT guy for small businesses.  We spoke for a long time as I had them completely enthralled, especially the doctor, about how I survived cancer (link). Lovely.  They all gave me cards and I had to make a new move.  YES to making new friends and YES to sharing my story and YES to allowing men to be men, receiving compliments, being flirty – loving it!  I like to flirt, why not YES!?

It was time to go.  I had been here for a while and had really worked the room.  With a purse full of new friends information and my white dress gleaming, I went down to the lobby to catch a cab.  The same guards were there scrambling to get me a cab!  Guardians – I love it?  Do you need a cab – YES!

As soon as I hit the outdoors I received a text.  “Hey – I am working the Lucky Lounge tonight, what are you doing?  Come on over – I can get you in the door.”  A handsome friend beckoned me to come hang out until he got off work at Luckie.  YES!  How did he know I was in the city?  I am usually at home on a Friday Night.  Eureka!

TO the Luckie Lounge!  The cab driver was really cool.  YES to his jokes, he had me laughing like a hyena – we were talking about Nigeria and how everyone says to watch out for Nigerians (he is Nigerian) because they are charmers.  YES to giving him compliments about his home country.  YES to allowing myself to have pleasant exchanges.  YES to tipping him more than 20%!  Keep the change King.  I love you!

The line was long.  I texted my friend.  I am here.  No longer than three minutes did I stand on that line.  He came over, grabbed my hand and ushered me directly to the front door.  He spoke to the cash lady and handed her a bill.  He kissed my cheek and told me to have fun.  That was it!  No strings attached!  YES.

I walked around the club and felt the vibes a bit.  Hungry as hell, I put in my request to have a table.  The line was long for tables so she told me she’d text when a table opened.  I was like, man.  But YES t waiting patiently.  YES to keeping a positive disposition.

Undefeated, I took my hungry arse to the dance floor.  These people seemed to be younger than me and with my elegant white dress on, not too many men seemed confident enough to check me.  Cool.  I’d dance alone.  I danced to TI, Souljaboy, other anthems that everyone knew like crazy leg?  I have never heard that one.  Getting old.  LOL! YES to today’s music!

As I danced with myself, slipping into a semi state of trance, this man popped into my reality.  He just came right over and started to dance with me.  At first glance I was like, OK, what is this man doing? Was he going to try to get me to do the crazy leg, did he want to lift my leg and dance like all the others, because I am a DIVA, can’t be…wait…I was about to say NO when I recalled my ritual.  YES to the dance.

We danced a few songs and he did not try to feel my booty or anything, so we talked a moment.  He asked me if I wanted a drink, I said NO, my first no of the evening.  But it is Equinox, no alcohol.  But that is a NO.  LOL!  Anyway, he did not ask me if I wanted alcohol, he asked me if I wanted a drink.  YES, water please.  Then he asked me if I was hungry.  YES YES YSE.  He snapped his fingers a few times and the servers came to him.  He told them that I wanted to eat.  They said I’d have to wait for a table.  He told them a few more words and the next thing you know I had a menu and then a lovely plate of sushi to go with my water.

This man was on point.  YES to that!  He stayed with me the entire evening and seemed to be at my beckoned call.  We danced fabulously together (I love to dance)  he kept telling me that there are no strings attached.  I mean, he literally said these words from his mouth several times.  He said he just wanted to protect me.  God Damn!  Sorry, I mean WOW!

I mean hours passed.  If I was on the back porch having a clove, he would come and peek in and ask me if I was OK.  I was fine, talking to another brother on the porch about, you guessed it, the Law of Attraction!  LOL!  This hood looking dude was telling me all about his study of Dr. Wayne Dyer!  LOL!  I was floored.  Not that young African AMerican males do not read, but that I was at a night club talking spirituality on my YES night.  And that I was being gaurded by the most gentle, smooth and creamy man you ever want to meet.  Not so super fine (which is why I almost said NO) but surely divine.

So our dance turned into hand dancing.  Amazing.  I began to really love this cat in terms of his eloquence and respect for me.  He was a charmer for sure.  We were hand dancing as everyone else was doing the butt.  LOL!  I had a marvelous time.  We literally danced until the lights came on – at which time I knew I was going to meet my other friend who had serendipitously let me in.  My dancing man was offering to take me home!  I live like 40 miles from the city!

They kicked us all out of the club – don’t know where you going go, but you have to get the hell outta here LOL.  I came into the night air with a chill to my back.  There on the stoop I met the greatest guys in the world.  Yes, more men!  What are you ladies talking about there are no good men here?  What?  They were traveling and doing some business of some sort.  They liked my style, they opened their phones and friend ed me on face book!  Wild!

I did not see my original friend, he was still working in the club I guessed.  But my dancing man found me – again – and offered his coat.  YES YES YES.  Thank you.  Now to this one I may have said no a while back, I mean I don’t want him to be cold.  Anyway, he left me there with his coat and told me that if I left with it to call him in the AM.  What?  OK.  Now that is chivalry.  And I believe in it, which is why I attracted it.  YES.

Pretty soon, my guy pulled up in his car.  ‘You ready to go?”.  YES.  Bam, my dancing man showed up at the same exact moment.  I thought, shit, these guys are both going to think I am playing them.  But I was not and do not play men.  I am real and open and free and innocent.  Do you know what I did?  I took both of their hands and told them, at the same time, ‘you guys are absolute kings, I told man #1 that man #2 had protected me all night and helped me with dinner and watched over me.  I told man # 2 that man #1 had paid my way and saved me from the line.  As I held both hands they seemed soothed.  They felt good just knowing they were men doing what men do, protecting and cherishing women.  Smooth, I know.  Daring, but smooth.  Goodbye man #2 – I’ll text tomorrow.  ‘Are you ok?’ YES.

In the car with this great guy who was taking me home to my posh suburban town, I though of the evening.  He is on my Cn365 system so I told him all about the ritual.  He said “Does that mean you are going to say yes to everything tonight?”.  My tenticles when up.  (And so what’s it to you?  Are you trying to get some?  Stupid old paradigm madness).  I shut that up and shut down for a moment.  I did not answer him with that same bouncy YES.

I knew I would be tested.  Ok, how to handle this.  Good looking man driving me home.  Good looking man asking me if I will say yes to him.  Good looking man making me shy again, making me recoil into the old cautious Kenya K.  I thought and thought.  “do you have a girlfriend?”  YES he said.  Good I thought, now I can easily say NO like usual.  It was morally wrong, after all, for me to spend time with this man who has a girlfriend if she does not know.

He wasn’t headed to my house.  He was headed to his.  Take me home please.  NO came hard.  But don’t get me wrong.  I knew this was a test of sorts.  I was still bubbly and happy on the outside, but on the inside I was conflicted.  He took me home.  I invited him in to watch one of my you-tube videos.  YES.  I had to get to the bottom of this.  The ritual was doing it’s job.  It ain’t always going to be easy to say yes.  It’s not that I wanted him to go, hell no, in my heart I wanted him there and to be in his arms a bit.  But the conflict 0 HUGE.

I was trying really hard guys.  No one was home as my husband was sleeping out and kids were sleeping out as well.  All alone, you tube over, what to do.  I thought of a quick idea.  I’d put him on a pallet on the floor.  Perfect and safe!  So I’d lay on the bed and him on the floor and we’d talk all night.  I loved talking to him, he, like me, is a fan of Eckart Tolle.  He is a deep brother with loads of Quantum juice.  He took a shower and he seemed even juicier.  But to the floor my friend.

I reached out to touch his hand.  We held hands and talked Quantum.  I told him, eventually, about my quandary with him having a woman.  YES to being authentic.  He helped me sort it out.  Finally I saw that what I deem morality is really a cover up for being afraid to live.  Its the same thing my husband always told me.  I deem everything that I am afraid to do as being morally wrong as thought it is morally wrong to live ones passion.

This:  My mother would kill me if I do not become a lawyer.  I hate law, but she paid for school.

Is the same as…

This:  My mother would kill me if I have an open relationship, she would just freak out.  I cannot do it no matter what.

Is the same as…

This:  If I love another person’s boyfriend, I will feel guilty about it and fearful that she may find out or worse, someone will do it to me.

When in actuality, we are ALL choosing our lives.  This man’s girlfriend is no different.  What if I loved her man and she found out about it and then she realized that she deserves better and then she tries to leave him but realizes she loves him more than words can say and then decides to stay and work through this which in turn shifts their relationship upward and opens them to real authenticity and she moves beyond fear and lack of trust which caused her to create him “cheating” in the first place?  Then who is the bad guy?  I might actually be considered the good guy in that case?

I know, I know, you guys are like, whatever Kenya K.  I know you are gonna have some comments for me.

Well, I will give you one more.  What if I decided to lover her man, and then she found out and decided to leave her man and then years later she thought back and realized that she gave up the 95% of his good stuff because of her fear of 5% of his bad stuff and then met another great men (there are billions of these) and this time decided that no matter what she was going to work out any issues with him because she recalled the one she let go over, basically, nothing at all?  What of that?

We always win at life.  Nothing is against us.  Everything is working in our favor all of the time.  Right and Wrong are relative and basically, non-existent outside of context.  My final hurdle jumped!  My morality excuse sank like the titanic taking all the old parts of me that found excuses to not following my bliss were finally unraveled.

So YES.  I said YES to being held and receiving love.  I said YES to life this awesome morning and I completed my ritual with full knowledge that I walked through the Equinox door with great esteem and loving help from my guides.  Now this may seem odd to you.  But for me, this is one of the best Equinox rituals ever!  I am finally free!  And by the way, the love was as sweet as Tupelo Honey and with the same healing properties… I will always say yes to my heart’s desires.  Restraint comes only when I feel that the YES is coming from fear, anger, ego, conditioning, old habits, or wrong beliefs.

YES in truth.  Love to you!

Written By Kenya K Stevens aka JujuMama xoxoxo

What happened was we chose three audience members randomly and had each of them get into bed on the stage to be worked on by hubby.  He uses a technique called NitVana but he has added some special skills to the mix as well.  We call our Event Organic Bliss - soon coming to a city near you!

But firsts are really cool!  I recall the first time I fell in love outside of my marriage.  It happened last year this time.  My husband had been – for two full years – trying to open me to these new concepts that I had immediately rejected.  What?  Another woman?  And more, me with any man I choose – NO WAY!  I am not down with that.  My sister, my mother, my dad, his parents, hell, everyone in my whole life would have a fit if we were to openly have this form of relationship.  My name is not Jada.  And you do not have Will Smith money so forget about it!

There I stood, holding my ground, refusing to trust him, myself or the Universe.  Hell, I did not want to try it.  I am a very prissy girl.  I had only had sex with one man for 12 – 13 years and I was not trying to CHANGE.  Besides, we were totally and 100% in love!  Why rock the boat?  On and on I went until one day my friend asked me to attend a conference in Memphis Tennessee.  OK, sure! This was an event on Green Living.  I plan to build a Green subdivision some day, 100% off the grid, so I gave it a whirl.

We rode down to Memphis together having delightful girl talk the entire ride.  She is a client, so we had loads of discussion about her relationship and mine.  Everything is cool, right?  Until I got to the conference and realized that this was a set-up!  The Universe was thrusting me out there – had taken me away from my home and kids and hubby (I never used to go out) and put me smack dab into a new world of people – lots of people – good looking people with lots on the ball.  I met so many wonderful individuals that weekend!

One in particular had caught my eye in the hallway.  I am not fond of sitting through long lectures, so I’d roam the hallway when I got antsy.  On this particular occasion, I ran into a boy I thought I knew from somewhere – has that every happened to you?  It can be quite embarrassing, right?  I mean I could have sworn I knew him and so I stopped to ask – where do I know you from?  We tried and tried to figure it out and eventually we did!  I had met him in passing, summers earlier, at a retreat with a spiritual theme.  He and I had been to that retreat every summer together for years but had never met formally.

Well this was really strange.  Then he started saying that when he saw me he thought of Oshun – the Goddess of love – something in the way I was walking or some shit.  Alright then… And he went on and on about the Goddess energy he was feeling and that he had had a dream about Oshun the night before.

Now this boy was pretty cute and all, but I was just wondering the halls, I wasn’t out looking for booty.  This is what I had always accused my husband of, wanting more women to have more booty.  He would always debate me and say that variety lends to expansion, not more booty, more challenges, more growth and more mental and spiritual expansion.  But I wasn’t falling for the metaphysical excuse, I told him it was about the booty and that was it.

Well, here I was minding my own damned business playing hookie on the workshops and I meet this man.  Soon our conversation was spinning into a dinner date.  He asked me if my friend and I would like to go with he and his friend to grab a re-pass.  OK.  No harm in a group dinner, right?  My girl agreed later as we dressed at the hotel. I started feeling strange.

Let me call my husband and tell him I am going on a dinner date with a man.  I am going to show him the type of respect I want him to show me if he were in the same situation.  My husband was like GOOD – have fun.  But, but…baby… its a man.  Fantastic I love you Hakashamut (his name for me).

Fantastic?  I love you?

When the time came I felt like I was going on a date.  I felt giddy and prickly on the inside like I was doing something wrong or naughty.  I could see if the boy was just not my type or really just some dude to kick it with on a friendship level, but he had called me Oshun and he had insinuated I was fine, and had shown more than a simple interest in me.  Maybe I should call my husband and tell him that – so I did.  My husband was like – Hakashamut – stop calling me and enjoy your life.  What?

So at dinner we sat and talked.  My friend did the unthinkable.  He pulled out his Mac and started working.  Now, most women would be turned off by this, but being the tech nerd that I am , I was completely aroused.  What are you working on?  He told me all about a website he was designing for the firm he worked with in California.  Oh, you are from Cali?  Yes, Santa Monica, I live four blocks from the beach in the company headquarters which is a pad on the beach!

Oh man – I knew this was a set-up.  How was I supposed to keep my cool when he kept surprising me with more intelligence, more spiritual insight and more sexiness?  I decided to put him to the test.  I began discussing some of my DIVA theories on relationships.  This would stump him and get the scent of man off him.  He could never have known about what I know about in this area.  I am a Quantum Relationships Scientist, a MOGUL,  A Love DIVA!  I bet he knew nothing about Tantra.

Do you know this man kept up with me and actually agreed with me on my theories.  He knew about the oracle I used, in fact he had his own oracle deck in his cool leather nap-sack!  He knew about the deities, and alternative tradition, and indigenous culture – the works!  Where is my girl?  I need help.  She was just chatting away with his friend.  Nothing serious, VERY platonic, after all she is a married woman, but damn, so am I!  Why does my vibe have to look so steamy when hers is nice and professional.  Maybe it is me, maybe I am just a steamy ass individual.

So we left that place, I paid for dinner trying to take my power back.  I covered the whole tab like What?  LOL!  I got dis.  Maybe that would scare him off, I didn’t need him to pay for me.  No favors for favors tonight buddy.  In the night air we walked back to the conference where there was to be a dance party.  He was making me laugh with his great sense of humor and stuff.  Man, this is not working for me.  At the dance I had a plan to lose him.

It worked! I found my way to the floor and danced my heart out, he was no where in sight.  The band was from New Orleans so they were mobile.  At the end of the night, they started playing those horns and drums right out of the ballroom and down the stairs.  Everyone was in an ecstatic trance as they followed the band.  We were singing some song we all seemed to know but had never really heard.  I think we made it up!  Now this is serious because I am a tranced out mama!  Music and signing and a band moving out of the room found me following and possessed with my ancestors just shouting and singing.  I was thinking about the Green Movement and the new world order and Barack Obama and we all were.  That was in the thick of the Primary last year.

As I danced I lost my shoes.  They just slid right off!  I found myself outside with a crowd shouting Obama Obama Obama and Peace and Love and all this hippie gibberish.  I was walking up to people hugging them, crying and laughing, we were sending energy to Obama and to Green movements everywhere.  I would find white boys and hug them, Chinese girls, native Americans t cuddle – this was a real free love moment.

When I came to, I found that he was standing over me – the original reason I had lost myself in the party.  He had my shoes and he was like – lets go…

Is this a dream, I thought, am I really in this location having a ball with a brilliant black man placing my shoes on my feet and asking me out for more of his Juju?  He walked me across the street to a bar in the Marriott hotel.  All of the hippies were there having drinks and relaxing.  My guy stood watch as I mingled in the afterglow of our ceremony.  We all exchanged cards and one more group free love hug before he asked me to come outside to talk.

He told me that I am the woman he has been looking for.  What?  We just met.  The one that he needs to work with to rise to his next level of self.  Well, you know I am married.   But my husband keeps talking about an open relationship.  Damn, why did I say that – I was giving him an inroad.  Why?  I must have been out of my mind!

An open relationship?  That’s cool.  So are you down?  No.  Yes.  Well, I understand that the Universe craves expansion and I know he loves me and I know that I am insecure about it, but I just do not know how to do it.  He told me to close my eyes as he shared a this story:

♥There was once a village of women and men who lived harmoniously together.  This was beyond the old days spoken of in books, this was more than 50,000 years ago.  These men and women were community.  The women were thought to be Goddesses, from the age of five they were trained to be women and they held one another to practice bliss, and they slept in the same bed with the boys to practice restraint and they danced in costume with developing breast bouncing in the wind.  Their mothers were happy because their mothers did not know who the fathers of the children were, the mothers had more security than any modern woman could imagine.  The mothers knew that every man in the village would take care of every girl in the dancing circle – and every boy near the dancing fire.  The mothers were happy because their daughters would choose a man at 14 during the onset of the menses and that man would be her housemate.

♦Her housemate was a lucky man.  He would have the pleasure of providing the meat from the hunt, the food from the field and the water from the lake.  He would become fulfilled as a man to simply be her mate, her lover and the caretaker of any children she had.  And as for sex, a spiritual science the girls knew well – and the boys – there would be plenty of it.  The healing ways were the ways of love.  Sex was a spiritual experience.  Never personal.  Sex was for the women to learn to be free and to create with her vision, sex was for the man to learn to give and heal a woman into powerful ecstatic trance that only he could induce in her.  To get her there was a crowning achievement.

♣The community was sane in that the freedom to love anyone opened everyone to being more than self, living more fully and personally connecting with human beings on levels we cannot fathom today.  The women were sisters.  They loved one another and were fully expected to hold one another hands in public, touch one another breast to be sure they were well, message one another in times of need and comment about one another beauty freely and often.  The women were not an angry group because they had the freedom to have vast amounts of sexual healing from anyone they chose and the men were a happy lot because the women would constantly find them, take them to the forest, sometimes two at a time and love for hours, sometimes until nightfall.  They all knew the children were safe because all of the men were uncle and all of the women were Mother.  (There was no word for father).

Whaaaaat?  Now how, I am asking you readers, HOW out of 6 billion people on this planet would I run into a man telling me this story as I am on the brink of losing my mind about my husband’s wished and desires.  How is it possible?  Do you know I melted into that man;s arms and hugged him.  I had indeed known him before – I saw that I had been his lover before.  It came in that hug, the vision of myself his male lover and he, a woman back then.  I was in tears and I was in agony and I was having an epiphany all at the same time.  How could I have been so foolish as to take a stupid modern construct at face value without exploring humanity in it’s wholeness to find this.  One story of millions that confirm my belief that we are greater than we could ever have know.  We are greater than what we have currently manifested.

At that time I was a life coach.  But in that moment I evolved into a relationships coach.  I had my book half way done and this was the perfect evolution of my story of matrimony into a story of monolithic proportion.  I had met a lover from a past life here in the middle of the Bible belt, had danced into trance and now this.

So needless to say he tried to kiss me. I was not ready for that.  I had to hold back as I stepped back into my body and away from the village square.  I had to contain myself.  But what are we really containing, which self do we contain when we fight the urge to connect on deep feeling levels with other human beings that are ONE with us?  Are we containing the right self?

I accepted only hugs that night. And when we got back to his hotel (I was dropping him off) he asked me the fatal questions “Will you come to my room, will you make love with me, will you be my Goddess?”.  Hell no – I mean, no I am sorry, I cannot do that tonight.  He put his hand on my leg for a final lean in hug.  Ouch!  Racing shards of energy right into my middle.  My God.  What in the world is this?  Heart pounding and lung orgasmic – Good night my love.

Honey, I just dropped him off.  Baby, that was weird.  I did not come her to meet someone.  I came to relax and enjoy a weekend without the kids and learn about Green Living.  What is happening to me?  What is happening to us?

Relax Hakashamut.  Tell me what happened… Wow…  I am glad you had a good time.  Try to get some rest.

Rest?

Yes.

Good night my love.

So needless to say this was my very first time.  This was the first time I experienced another love and allowed even so much as a hug from another man.  This was the first time I realized that we do not choose love consciously, but that our sub-conscious minds are choosing for us, in this case spirit alone was the chooser.  What are the odds of this, my people?

Me and ancient boy spent the next day skipping out of the conference and having lunch over Memphis Jazz on that famous street.  What is it called?  I allowed him to message my feet, the waitress told us to get a room!  I could not tell my married girlfriend about this on the way home.  I am her relationship coach.  WFT?

As soon as I got home I demanded my husband speak with this man. I was not going to go to California to see my new friend as he requested without my husband having the talk with him.  They spoke and became good friends.  I went to California the next month, but luckily I was in the red zone and did not have to do the impossible, make love to another man with this ring on my finger.

But eventually we did, over the months that passed, I opened.  And I met his fiance too!  She was nice, we became friends, good friends.  My husband liked his fiance and they would often both come to stay with us that summer.  What African American household looks like this?  Well, mine did until August when he broke up with me.  He was tired of me placing rules and regulations on him and on my husband.  I was freaking out too much.  I wanted to have my new friend but I did not want my husband to have any other woman.  I was afraid of having this relationship from the jump, so I was never really that relaxed through it all.  I was exercising control and neither of my lovers liked that very much…

I thought I would never see him again.  He would text, call, IM on occasion until it all fizzed out.

But guess what happened today, march 5, 2009?  That man called me to say that he was not in California but that he was in my city (I live in Atlanta’s boondocks, in the middle of no where).   He told me he is just two miles away from me right now as I write.  He asked me to come and see him.  I could not.  He asked me to go to the movies with him tonight.  I can not.  I will see him tomorrow at 12:00 noon.  I have no idea what to say.  My husband and I have been through so much together since my ancient lover and I parted ways.  I am sure he and my man will have a beer together and smoke a cigar on the back porch facing our forest out there.  Where the love fairies live…

You have got to love this journey, my friends.  The experiences never cease to amaze me.  I’ll tell you how tomorrow noon goes.

Thank you for reading Jujumama | Manifest Sexy!  Bliss to you!  I welcome your comments.  And I take questions *giggle*

Kenya K Stevens

JujuMama

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Do you know the language of spirit? Did you know your spirit (sub-conscious mind) doesn’t know a word of English!

Here’s the skinny: Your sub-conscious mind makes up 88% of you!  YES 88%.  They say we only use 12% of our brains at current. (OK, some less…)

Imagine using more of the brain!  When we learn the language of spirit, we become Avatars – awakened to super human powers similar to that of Jesus, Buddha, and the like?

Yes – Avatars – bending water, earth and bank accounts with a single thought.  You heard it here first – all we have to do is use the entire brain or at least a bit more than 12%!

That tiny 12% is generally intellectual function.  That’s cool.  We go to modern schools to empower the intellect, but the largest and most powerful part goes neglected.

We are not victims to the modern paradigm.   At any given point we can learn a new language - the sensual language of spirit!

Here is what you can accomplish by learning a new language – the language of spirit:

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• Crush blockages to success, wealth and happiness
• Burst old patterns – create new healthy patterns
• Get better at anything – become an expert in any field
• Create Blissful relationships
• Make more money more quickly
• Enjoy more success – more of the time
• Create more peace, joy, love, comfort, ecstasy, happiness, satisfaction and harmony

Spirit Bending takes a moment in time to shift;  no worries, time is a fallacy too!  Read on…  I’m going to give you the five steps to magically shifting your spirit easily and effortlessly!

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So as it stands, here is your spirit hovering about up there, somewhere in 88% of your mind, creating strange things you call ‘coincidences’.  Wow, here you are repeating an old pattern.  He dissed you again – coincidence? You are broke again, coincidence? Not living your passion again this year, coincidence (fait?).

Your scenery isn’t changing much, right?  It’s the master program at work.  Your spirit contains your master program – or your hard drive.  You downloaded most of the applications from age 0-7 and then more from 7 to your current age. But the damned thing appears to be stuck on stupid only because you haven’t debugged lately…

What?

Let us take a closer look.   Your spiritual hard drive speaks a specific language just as your computer’s hard drive communicates in 0′s and 1′s.  What if you sat there and tried to communicate with your computer with words.  “Take Me To Facebook!”  Would it go?  I do not think so.  Well, not unless you have the voice activation application which translates your language to that of your PC.  Then you can have your crackbook fix…LOL!

The language and function of your internal hard drive – many say spirit – is similar.  Not in that it reads 0′s and 1′s but in that it does not communicate in English.  Hard drive is to PC’s functionality as Inner Spirit is to your personal reality.

If you were anything like me, you would design a machine as creamy as a Mac (I am pimped out on Mac – sorry) that would talk to your spirit for you;  Communicate effectively, so your life runs smoothly. But you do not have to go to the drafting table – I have a blueprint for your own Spirit Bending Machine.  Forget the conceptual stage and follow these easy instructions.  No assembly required.

If you want to talk to your Inner Being – yes the one that creates your world (sorry, the intellect does not create, it is a tool of transmission not of creation) -  then go ahead and speak – but use the following language so that your Internal Hard Drive can get the message.  Add applications as needed, they are infinite.  And have as much fun as humanly possible!  You are The Avatar baby, now lets Bend Some Spirit!  Ohhhhh – sexy!

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The Sensual Language of Spirit:

FEELING|EMOTION – the sensual language of spirit.  Empty words don’t mean a thing.  It’s feeling or emotion that ignite the function of your Internal Hard Drive.  ‘Speaking English’ to that Inner Being is only relevant if you have strong emotion behind what you say.  But for most, this isn’t the case.  In fact, many of us speak affirmations that we do no FEEL or Believe.  Then we say – well affirmations don’t work – I’m going back to prayer – prayer doesn’t work – I’m going to be an atheist – roaming is too expensive – I am depressed.

So how do we add feelings to our lives without being a total sap?  Why, we harness the five sense of course!  Make FEELING easy!  The Five ‘known’ senses are mechanisms just as the keyboard is a mechanism that translates our language into 0′s and 1′s.  More accurately, our five senses are like an operating system (windows?) for dummies.  You don’t have to know how to program to use an operating system – you just use the handy thing and you’re surfing the net like magic or using any application you wish – even downloading more!

Here is how you can harness the five senses to communicate FEELINGS to your spirit. Your Inner Being needs to know how you FEEL to deliver what you want.  You see, due to early programming, most of us FEEL afraid that we will never get what we want.  Spirit ‘feels’ that.  Our strongest emotions are often, anxiety, fear, boredom, or lack.  Spirit doesn’t hear you say “I want one million dollars”  It FEELS you say “I will probably never have one million dollars, I am not smart enough, I have to go to work, I have to get my degree first”.

You see,  words do not compute and logic will never do.  It doesn’t matter that you say you want money, spirit FEELS your disbelief.  Spirit doesn’t care that it is not logical to live check-to-check.  She delivers on what you FEEL.  She does not care if it is heartbreak you expect.  She delivers what you FEEL.  It’s time to create something new.  Until then, she will simply do what you FEEL is most likely…

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To change this poor communication of FEELING, try using the five senses more pointedly.

Operating System Component One:  TOUCH

Your spirit FEELS touch.  You can install the CREATE MONEY NOW application using the Touch button!  Use touch as a conduit to speak with spirit.  Use TOUCH to communicate just how much money and by when.  Touch is simply.  You can touch yourself anywhere and in any way (if you are not Catholic).  You can solicit others to touch you for you.  Kinky.  You can have as much fun as you like with touch.  Just be sure that when you are being touched and feeling the good feelings of being touched that you channel the energy toward what you desire.  Practice feeling good not just because of the touch, but because this touch translates what it FEELS like to get what you desire.  In this way you speak to spirit.

Every touch that feels good opens communication to spirit.  Even touch that FEELS bad communicates – that is why some choose to spank.  I speak on this in another article on this blog about sex. TOUCH opens the gateway to spirit and sends the code needed for your Inner Being to hear you.  Touch gives you goose bumps, alters your state of consciousness and takes you to the upper 88% of your brain.  Use the BLISS of TOUCH to communicate to Spirit.

Have you ever noticed when in BLISS during TOUCH you aren’t thinking about your fears?  You feel on top of the world and you actually are.  Touch is a Spirit Benders tool for creating connection to spirit.  Once the connection is made just inject your desires, focus on them during the TOUCH session and your Inner Being will hear you loud and clear.  Simple enough?

If you have no one to touch you, and are too chaste to touch yourself, go get a message.  Once the masseuse is touching you, allow yourself to slip into an altered state of consciousness – now dream away about what you truly desire – perfect and flawless connection to SOURCE.

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Operating System Component Two:  SIGHT

Art is HUGE in our culture, images are powerful.  Commercial Ads provide proof of this.   An image of what the marketing expert wants you to buy set with the right colors, light and tone, invokes FEELINGS of DESIRE.  You want that THING.  How fabulous!  I love marketing.  But now let’s shift this function so that you can program your Inner Being with what you actually want, not what someone wants you to want.

Any image will do – give me stick figures dammit.  You can speak with your Inner Being using Images.  This is why vision boards, Mind Movies and the like have been so popular in New Paradigm thought (which is really old Indigenous thought – yeah I said it!)  Drawing pictures, create photo collages and use screen savers depicting your desired end results.  Whenever your spirit sees an image, it reads it carefully and integrates it into your being.  You immediately begin to attract what you see.  This is why we all dress the same, talk the same, listen to similar music and so forth.  Use SIGHT technology to create what you desire.

Now, the imagination is also in this mix.  If we had been trained from youth to create images in our minds and hold those images until they became reality, we wouldn’t have to use something so primitive as a poster board and magazine clippings. No matter,  practice creating images of what you desire in your mind; SIGHT is a great line in to SOURCE.

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Operating System Component Three:  SOUND

Music is Magic.  What you hear in the form of melodic sound has the potential to become your reality.  Spirit hears melody, harmony and sound vibration and these vibes alter our state of consciousness and place us in a receptive state.  This is why it is important to monitor what you hear in the form of music.  When Biggie Smalls Rapped over a trance inducing, dope, beat that he was Ready To Die, spirit took him seriously.  Sorry.  Take in through sound only what you desire in your reality.

I like TI – ‘You Can Have Whatever You Like’  Try this on for size ladies – LOL

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See, doesn’t that FEEL good?  OK – if you don’t like the song (hateration) then inject any song you like.  Or make up your own!  But be sure you’re sending your spirit the right message.  Want more love, more money, more peace, just choose the right song!  Meditation CD’s are great too.  I made some!  My group is called Trance Organic -  Buy FLowCA$h Here… I’m fresh like dat.

Let’s move on…

Operating System Component Number Four:  TASTE

This is a yummy one.  Taste is an important way to communicate with Spirit.  I’ll prove it.  When you feel down doesn’t that Hagen Daaz lift you up for the moment?  Yeah, I know.  Now just use that technology wisely.  Use Honey, oranges, mango and sliced sugar cane and go to work!  Eat that luscious fruit, or have someone feed you, and direct the feel good energy of the tastes sensations toward what you want!  You can even name the damned fruit – this orange is my new lover, isn’t he sweet – and then proceed to eat him alive!  Take him in like a lover would.  You’ll get the results you desire.  Change your past this way – this honey is the sweet words of my mother – (maybe mom was not so sweet – so what!)

This is fun and smooth – much like a Mac!  Better than facebook in terms of stimulation.   A direct route to spirit!  Get busy ya’ll!  You must have one piece of fruit in that pantry.  Get it out and munch away – munch into a brand new day!

Be sure to enjoy the sweet essence of tasty treats with your objectives in mind.  Your spirit will get the message loud and clear and you’ll begin to see that your reality is just as sweet as the fruit you eat.

Operating System Component Five: SMELL

Now this one is common.  Aromatherapy is ordinarily recognized by science for it’s medicinal effects.   Shift your mood, lift your spirits and heal your body!  How does essential oil do all of that?  Well, it opens a passage to your soul!  Each herb has a different effect on the spirit, in this way, essential oils can alter your state of consciousness in specific ways.

Need Courage?  Try Pine

Need Love?  Try Rose

Need Patience?  Try Myrrh

Need Money?  Try Honeysuckle

Need Peace?  Try Mint

Whatever you need there is an herb that can communicate your desire to your Hard Drive, you Inner Being.  Use herbs by simply applying them, in oil form, to your body!  If you are really savvy, you can run a bath and use the oil or fresh herb in the tub (don’t clog the drain – OK?  I am not liable and will not be sending a plumber to your home)  Once you feel the essence of the lovely scent, simply channel the BLISS you FEEL toward your objective.  And here is where blending comes in handy.

How often do you simply get on the PC (see, I am not biased to Mac) and use windows to do just one thing at a time?  Today I will use Word, tomorrow I will use EXCEL, the next day I will use POWERPOINT?  Almost never huh?

BLEND YOUR SPIRIT BENDING!

Combine the function of the five senses (your operating system) to navigate life seamlessly.  Use touch, taste, smell, sight and sound together.  Get jiggy with it and make magic in your life.  Juju means Magic!!!  And this is what we do baby!  I enjoy setting my bath with essential oils, using an image that I love or creating one in my mind, drenching my body with honey and licking my fingers of it, while listening to by boyfriend, TI, tell me I can have whatever I like, as my husband rubs my back.  LOL!  Oh I am a Spirit Bending Diva!  Oh, my husband doesn’t mind my boyfriend TI because he benefits from my having whatever I like!

I don’t believe in luck.  I am an Avatar just like you, and I am determined to enable the higher functions of my mind, learn the terrain of spirit, and use technology to shift my entire reality, daily!  I invoke powerful emotion to create what I desire.  I employ FEELINGS and EMOTION so that Spirit can ‘understand’ what I really want and work on my behalf.  You can do it too!  Just sit back, turn up the tunes, and relax! Wanna try?

I love you!

JujuMama

Article Written By:  Kenya K Stevens

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